forever.t.era

after not appearing on this space for so long, i felt as if i will be torn apart if i did not come here to say my piece. many events had occured in this year which showed me the crude reality of life no more than ever. there can never be forever and people are often forgetful and hence can be so easily forgotten. and sometimes, the recognition you ever want to receive just never come no matter how hard you work.

and so i wonder how do those who are forgotten deal with the changes, the realisation and the emotions that come together with it? it is really demoralising at times when you try all that you can to savage whatever damage that had been done and restart anew but it is just not enough to compensate for all the lost times and lost trust, love. even i, who had not been through what they had been through, feel this way. i just cannot bear to imagine how much exactly did they go through within themselves.

after watching mama today, i felt it more than ever. emotionally. although i am not a hardcore cassie, i was really regretful and felt really unjust for changmin and yunho. i saw just how hard they worked and tried to maintain the name of tvxq after the separation. not to mention having all those emotions kept within them alll this while.

although i only came to like them after their separation, i am thankful for being able to watch all their previous performances. they are really true artists who never fail to put on mind blowing and epic live performances all the time. i can never say this more but they reallly DESERVE to win. I can never express how much grievances i have for them. to be recognised at least for putting in so much sweat and tears and for walking through this road for the past 3 gruelling years.

it is really saddening for me to deal with crude reality and made myself question about their fading popularity. i went to read different forums set up regarding this issue and was shocked to read that people actually left when they were performing during smtown. it is really depressing to read something like this, what's more, they are artists whom i really respect.

regardless of how unjust i felt, i still have to face the truth and the crude fact. i just wish for them to be still loved by all the cassies and know that to us, the t- era is forever.

shortbreak

the recess week is finally heree! shall not think about all the assignments and tests dued after the coming week for the time being. i had so much urge to start watching on call 36 hours but decided to wait for 2 more months to prevent h/x from repeating itself, like last sem.

on a happy note, tvxq is FINALLY having their COMEBACK on sept 24!!! so excited for their new songs! definitely will be heading to the store to show my support.

sotired

back on this space after a looong 3 months. holidays had been awesome and school is taking a toll on me as the dreadful 21st is coming. never had i have so many things to complete by that day! it's really annoying, stressful and not to say mind-draining. looking at all those assigments again and again is making me frustrated- i wonder why i spent so much time on them. ):

on another note, i cnt believe smtown is coming HEREEE in november!! i got freaking excited but then again how cn i compete with all the sones and elfs to get a ticket?

movie marathon

This time round, I decided to stop watching k-dramas endlessly and went on to search for movies to watch. I chanced upon three really good one; all of them had an unexpected twist in their stories and the message that was brought across is really intriguing and touching. It is not simply just about watching a film.

Jump Ashin

This is based on a true story which makes it so inspiring and real.

About how a gymnastics athlete become delinquent, getting into all kinds of
trouble after being forced by his mother to quit the sport and decided to go back
to the beloved sport after going through a thug lifestyle.

Taught me that as long as you have your heart and mind set into doing

 something, it will never be too late.

Always (오직 그대만)

This have to be one of the most touching films I had watched in the recent years.

About an ex-champion boxer and a woman who is gradually losing her eyesight.

I loved everything about this movie; the cast (SO JI SUB + HAN HYE JOO), the plot.

This film also made me used up 2 packets of tissues.

Taught me that love can conquer all.

Hear Me

I had been wanting to watch this ever since it was in the cinema
3 years ago. Finally got the chance to watch this today. I had to admit it was a
 little boring at the front and middle. The story got better along the way and the
ending is really touching. A good potrayal of how speech aint the barrier to
fulfillingyour dreams and loving someone.

fighting

went on a youtube search again and there were so many of their live performances that caught my ears. they sound damn superb singing live. i just hope that the media could stop flaming the recent incidents and focus more on their music.

youaremissed

it has been a very loong time ever since i blogged. many things had happened, some of which i am glad that i am willing to take the extra step to make the change. for now, i just hope that my summer exchange to korea will be accepted. 4 upcoming tests and none completed revision. it's demoralising enough and we still have to complete individual lab reports and my cybercrime report just have to add on to my tremendous workload. somehow, i wished that this week will never pass and that i will have more time to complete all the things i need to do. time really flies.

out of randomess, i went to listen to tvxq live performances while doing my lab reports. i came across this song which they sang on their five in the black tour back in 2007 in japan. this song showcased their emotional side and it got me emotional too haha. i guess the worst thing that happen out of their separation is that we can no longer hear them sing tvxq songs as five again. all the seven years worth of tvxq songs could only remain in memory. i truly wish for their comeback as five someday and if it really happen, that i will be able to hear them sing live.

*always keep the faith

5/9

finally decided to go ahead with trying out and showdown was today. perhaps deep down, a part of me was already hypnotising myself. that it will turn out this way. nonetheless, i am glad that i decided to go ahead with it. what's mine will be mine. if it aint mine, i wouldnt force it as well.

dilemma

i didnt expect myself to begin the 1st post for the new year in this manner. esp after such a looong time. i am seriously stuck with a dilemma. one tt may change my life for at least the next 3 years. i made the enquiries and am stuck with whether i shld go on to fulfill it. a part of me tells me to go for me and not having to regret later on while its counterpart holds me back, as i predict the kind of questions they will be posting me for all tt i am lacking for. i never had such a hard time trying to make up my mind to pursue for something that i want. so i am having a tug of war now, thinking wat's the best decision i shld make.