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loads of things happened in sch. that made me think about what is it that i actually want. it had been a long time since i really felt that i was happy with what i was doing. and there is so much i want to rant about but i wont start again. i will learn to swallow them unless i am really exploding. recess week is finally here and the most dreaded month is coming. march is termed madness month because there are tests, quizzes, assignment and presentation dued every week. i will need a lot of energy and mental strength to hold on. but for now, i will just take things as they come and overcome them one by one.

read about their lawsuit and found out about the dismissal of SM's injunction.although it is not over yet. it is definitely a huge relief for them.

looking back, the five of them had created and shared tons of memories. from strangers to bandmates to friends to soulmates; the common passion was the string that linked them together. they had grown up together, experienced the most spectacular part of their lives under each other's presence and went through all the downturns with each other's company. they knew they had each other to rely and count on. and that was all that matters to keep them going.

but things changed.

and everything is different now. there were shock, anguish, disbelief and speculations of the reasons behind their splitting moves. the media hype goes on with the lawsuit and the string that once bind them together was holding them against each other; like a tug of war that arises from cruelty. it was a tough decision to make and they had to go through so much sorrow and pain. it was a heartwrenching ordeal for all of them.

whatever the result of their lawsuit, i just hope that they wont go back to square one and become strangers again.

goodbye tiger. hello rabbit.

it is the time of the year where i see mandarin oranges, pineapple tarts, love letters lying in my house again. it is the joyous festive season that bring the entire family together for reunion dinner.

to celebrate the end of a lunar year and to embrace the new one with hope, happiness and excitement.

to squeeze in my dad's car with my siblings and listen to those cny songs as we made our way to housevisit.

to catch up with one another and to hear the elders say how much u have grown up, become fatter or thinner.

to munch on cny goodies and watch many tv programs at the different houses.

some things just never change and i am glad it still is today. (:

tug of war

it is getting harder. and harder. and harder to stay afloat.
depsite all that, i have to keep telling myself that i will pull through this gruelling period and everything will be fine.
information is overloading and overwhelming.
i need more time. i need to find more time.
i have to trust that i can do it.
i have to pull myself up in times like this.
throw away the negative thoughts and continue walking although it is getting so hard and my legs are tired and i want to stop so badly.
i just need to continue and never give up.

rants and thoughts

sch had started and it is the 2nd week oreadi. a new year. a new semester. and a whole new experience. i had the experience of having 2 projects on hand after i ended my 1st day of sch. how exciting. i cn sense tt more are coming my way. and things haven been gg smoothly as well. but i just dont want to think so much abt it and take things one at a time. i realised i always end up complaining and ranting abt sch life and sch work here. i guess i need this tiny space to shout out all the unhappiness and frustration and what not to ease myself.

the rainy season is here again. everyday just feel so cold and i am trying hard not to eat ice-cream. i think i need to stock up more in view of the hectic days that will come. a scoop or two never fail to make me feel better. (:

alot has been gg thru my mind recently. i understand alot more but there is still alot tt i dont understand and cnt seem to figure out. oh wells. i still believe they exist for a reason just tt the right time haven come for me to figure them out. (:

i have been following their dispute. and the least i want is for status quo to become permanent. it is no longer about who is at fault and who isnt. all those dont matter anymore. wat's more impt is when cn it all come to an end and for everything to go back to where they use to be. before all the sorrow and longing turned to feud and hatred. i hate bad endings. because they make pple regret when they think back years ltr about what had happened. i dont think anyone of them deserved to go through this ordeal. because they had been through so much tgt. no one knows best except themselves and perhaps there is so much tt they want to say to each other tt they could no longer find the words to say it anymore.

and i wonder why unfortunate events must happen after smth great is just over. the mild success was all that they get for so much tt they put in. it is unfair, unforgiving and truly unbearable to watch. despite all that, i truly wish them well and believe that they will put smiles on each other's faces again. because a cassie always keep the faith.

rocket,empire and adjectives

went for exco retreat at sentosa resort from 4-6 jan. although the sky was pouring from the 1st day that we were there, it did not dampened our mood at all. we made the best out of it and still had lots of fun. played hotel 6-2-6 for the 1st time and couldnt stop laughing when we were playing empire. more pple joined us on the 2nd day and we had bbq with the ad-hoc comms. i tried bbq-ing food under the umbrella for the 1st time and it's great to see everyone ard having fun. i tried playing rocket, frisbee and volleyball at 0000hr at the beach for the 1st time. although the lights were dim and many of us couldnt see properly, the pple present really made things fun. we played for 2 hrs and didnt realise time passed so fast! there was definitely more bonding amongst and within ourselves and i am glad we did organise for a retreat and everyone turned up despite the hectic schedule that we had. (:

the awesome pple that made the retreat so fun and memorable!

everyone that turned up for bbq! (:


good news to share!
tvxq is finally back with their latest after 2 long years!
i am really really happy for them.
because they worked really hard for this one
despite all that had happened to them.
although there is only changmin and yunho,
i am sure yoochun, junsu and jaejoong will join them soon. (:
they just need more time.
*always keep the faith*

the full stop and new page.

say goodbye to 2010 and embrace 2011.

another year passed and we are all a year older.

looking back, a lot had happened in 2010.

there are joyous moments, depressed periods and confused instances.

but all these has passed and i understood much more than before.

because i discovered much more and found out much more about myself.

perhaps there is too much that i want to say,

too much that i want to express,

that it had tired me out.

perhaps there is too much thoughts running through my mind,

that it had made me worried too much.

perhaps there is too much uncertainty

for the painting is not complete that i cnt see the light.

but as the year comes to a full stop tonight,

i will face the new page with faith.

because as long as i always keep the faith,

i will walk through this treacherous path.

the remains of its history

visited the national museum today with belle, min and cand. it was a truly enriching experience.learnt alot more about Pompeii from the museum tour guide and the artefacts showcased there. a little brief history about the fall of Pompeii: Pompeii was buried with volcanic mud, ash and pumice within 2 days after the eruption of Mount Vesuvius on 24 August 79 CE. it was only rediscovered in the 18th century. approximately 1150 vicitims were revealed and many excavated buildings were restored following the efforts of archaeologists from 1863 onwards.

the most interesting part of the exhibition was that i get to witness the lifestyle of the Pompeiians such as the kind of houses they lived in, the kind of public entertainment they enjoyed, the gods they worshipped and even the various types of food they eat in their normal daily lives. it was said that many of the Pompeiians were freedmen that mended businesses for their owners- the wealthy whom left Pompeii after going through the various earthquakes encounters before the Plinian eruption destroyed the town.

i guess we can never match up to the power of mother nature. one volcanic eruption is all that it takes to destroy an entire town and make the world forget about its existence for 1800 years. a truly sorrow fate for the Pompeiians.

this exhibition is really awesome and nus/ntu students shouldnt be missing it! because it's FOC. hahas. went for lunch at cathay and did catching ups with the gals after that. i was pretty upset i didnt manage to find thanksgiving live in dome dvd in gramophone cathay and hmv in both cityhall and heeren. shall continue my search and hopefully i will find it soon! (: hols is ending in another week and time really flies. gotta make full use of the remaining time and recharge myself before the new semester starts again.