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Saturday, January 28, 2012

5/9

finally decided to go ahead with trying out and showdown was today. perhaps deep down, a part of me was already hypnotising myself. that it will turn out this way. nonetheless, i am glad that i decided to go ahead with it. what's mine will be mine. if it aint mine, i wouldnt force it as well.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

dilemma

i didnt expect myself to begin the 1st post for the new year in this manner. esp after such a looong time. i am seriously stuck with a dilemma. one tt may change my life for at least the next 3 years. i made the enquiries and am stuck with whether i shld go on to fulfill it. a part of me tells me to go for me and not having to regret later on while its counterpart holds me back, as i predict the kind of questions they will be posting me for all tt i am lacking for. i never had such a hard time trying to make up my mind to pursue for something that i want. so i am having a tug of war now, thinking wat's the best decision i shld make.

Monday, June 13, 2011

just f.y.i.

i realised i haven been blogging for quite some time. preceptorship will end this friday and the holidays are finally coming. there is so much that happened for the past 6 weeks. alot of thoughts went through and sometimes i just wonder wat's the best choice. maybe i have yet to experience it. nonetheless, i am grateful for all that i had went through for it broaden my perspective and made me realise more.

i miss shopping. i miss mahjong. i miss running. and i miss cycling the most. hopefully i cn do all of them after preceptorship ends.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

dontforget

i realised i havent been updating for awhile. the long awaited school holidays is here and preceptorship week II is ending. life has been pretty routine: preceptorship, kdrama, preceptorship and more kdrama. finally get to watch secret garden, paradise ranch and my princess. went back to watch iris so completed 4 kdramas thus far. it's kind of insane how i cn spend the entire weekend staring at the computer screen. i just get so hooked on the stories and couldnt stop watching. i also went back to read the 2 jodi picoult books i bought last year. hadnt had the time to complete them. hopefully i cn finish them before school starts.

preceptorship is pretty fun although i was kind of intimidated the first few days especially when i couldnt locate all the different items the customers asked. experienced the real retail setting and everyday worklife of a retail pharmacist. i guess i might be considering this path afterall. since it really isnt what i thought to be.

school holidays means more time to think and think and think. staring at the dark space, the same old questions will popped up and as usual i dont have the answers. sometimes i just wished i am so tired that i will just fall asleep and not have the energy to think so much.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

simple

the final week of the month is finally here! and the horrendous april is waiting for me. i just cnt bear to think how my life will be then. i will just have to take things one at a time. hopefully everything will not be too overwhelming for me to handle.

i learnt a new word in school 2 weeks ago: jaded. and it suits me totally. plus what i have been feeling for the past few months. it had been just continuous studying non-stop for all of us. right from the start of the semester. because we have so many tests and midterms and everyone just want to do well and that make things even more stressful. i want to feel better and be happy about what i am doing. i just want a weekend whereby i dont have to think about sch work and tests and really let my hair down.

i felt that i have never truly stopped and paused down once to look at all the things i have been missing so far in my life. it could have been a much simpler and easier path. but i took this instead. and sometimes, especially in times like this, i really question myself why did i ever do that for. i guess i knew that answer all along, i just want to rant for that moment. what an irony right. complaining about things that i chose for myself.

no matter how much i rant. no matter how hard things are going to get. i just have to believe that i can go through them.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

breather

i should be studying for next week's pharmaco and the many upcoming tests. but here i am blogging because i finally ended the dell's ppt today! although things didnt really go the way i wanted, i am happy it is over! all the late nights has been making my brain worse- i realised i couldnt rmb stuff as well as last time. i need some gingko supplements to improve my memory! there is a pile of papers waiting for me to absorb them. if only i cn rmb all of them by mere touching that stack and all the info willl flow in. what naive thinking right.

and my gastric came to visit today after such a long time. had a really bad relapse today after the dell ppt. i think the h pylori in my stomach is multiplying and causing me all the upset. hopefully it will die down and not come back for a loong loong time.

need to go back to studying. the pile of papers is really stacking up and scary to see.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

3/4 left.

the madness month is finally here. and 1 week had passed. it was not exactly pleasant but i am still glad that it is over. things will definitely turn worse and i am waiting for them to come. and i wonder, wat is behind all this hard work and effort. it kills to see things that dont reciprocate. it's like pouring water into a broken glass and not knowing why no matter how hard u try, u cnt seem to fill it up.

watching them definitely make me feel better. their passion saw them through the gruelling and depressing 24 months before their comeback. and so i cn still believe that as long as u truly put ur heart into it, u can achieve what u want eventually.