tug of war

it is getting harder. and harder. and harder to stay afloat.
depsite all that, i have to keep telling myself that i will pull through this gruelling period and everything will be fine.
information is overloading and overwhelming.
i need more time. i need to find more time.
i have to trust that i can do it.
i have to pull myself up in times like this.
throw away the negative thoughts and continue walking although it is getting so hard and my legs are tired and i want to stop so badly.
i just need to continue and never give up.

rants and thoughts

sch had started and it is the 2nd week oreadi. a new year. a new semester. and a whole new experience. i had the experience of having 2 projects on hand after i ended my 1st day of sch. how exciting. i cn sense tt more are coming my way. and things haven been gg smoothly as well. but i just dont want to think so much abt it and take things one at a time. i realised i always end up complaining and ranting abt sch life and sch work here. i guess i need this tiny space to shout out all the unhappiness and frustration and what not to ease myself.

the rainy season is here again. everyday just feel so cold and i am trying hard not to eat ice-cream. i think i need to stock up more in view of the hectic days that will come. a scoop or two never fail to make me feel better. (:

alot has been gg thru my mind recently. i understand alot more but there is still alot tt i dont understand and cnt seem to figure out. oh wells. i still believe they exist for a reason just tt the right time haven come for me to figure them out. (:

i have been following their dispute. and the least i want is for status quo to become permanent. it is no longer about who is at fault and who isnt. all those dont matter anymore. wat's more impt is when cn it all come to an end and for everything to go back to where they use to be. before all the sorrow and longing turned to feud and hatred. i hate bad endings. because they make pple regret when they think back years ltr about what had happened. i dont think anyone of them deserved to go through this ordeal. because they had been through so much tgt. no one knows best except themselves and perhaps there is so much tt they want to say to each other tt they could no longer find the words to say it anymore.

and i wonder why unfortunate events must happen after smth great is just over. the mild success was all that they get for so much tt they put in. it is unfair, unforgiving and truly unbearable to watch. despite all that, i truly wish them well and believe that they will put smiles on each other's faces again. because a cassie always keep the faith.

rocket,empire and adjectives

went for exco retreat at sentosa resort from 4-6 jan. although the sky was pouring from the 1st day that we were there, it did not dampened our mood at all. we made the best out of it and still had lots of fun. played hotel 6-2-6 for the 1st time and couldnt stop laughing when we were playing empire. more pple joined us on the 2nd day and we had bbq with the ad-hoc comms. i tried bbq-ing food under the umbrella for the 1st time and it's great to see everyone ard having fun. i tried playing rocket, frisbee and volleyball at 0000hr at the beach for the 1st time. although the lights were dim and many of us couldnt see properly, the pple present really made things fun. we played for 2 hrs and didnt realise time passed so fast! there was definitely more bonding amongst and within ourselves and i am glad we did organise for a retreat and everyone turned up despite the hectic schedule that we had. (:

the awesome pple that made the retreat so fun and memorable!

everyone that turned up for bbq! (:


good news to share!
tvxq is finally back with their latest after 2 long years!
i am really really happy for them.
because they worked really hard for this one
despite all that had happened to them.
although there is only changmin and yunho,
i am sure yoochun, junsu and jaejoong will join them soon. (:
they just need more time.
*always keep the faith*