after not appearing on this space for so long, i felt as if i will be torn apart if i did not come here to say my piece. many events had occured in this year which showed me the crude reality of life no more than ever. there can never be forever and people are often forgetful and hence can be so easily forgotten. and sometimes, the recognition you ever want to receive just never come no matter how hard you work.
and so i wonder how do those who are forgotten deal with the changes, the realisation and the emotions that come together with it? it is really demoralising at times when you try all that you can to savage whatever damage that had been done and restart anew but it is just not enough to compensate for all the lost times and lost trust, love. even i, who had not been through what they had been through, feel this way. i just cannot bear to imagine how much exactly did they go through within themselves.
after watching mama today, i felt it more than ever. emotionally. although i am not a hardcore cassie, i was really regretful and felt really unjust for changmin and yunho. i saw just how hard they worked and tried to maintain the name of tvxq after the separation. not to mention having all those emotions kept within them alll this while.
although i only came to like them after their separation, i am thankful for being able to watch all their previous performances. they are really true artists who never fail to put on mind blowing and epic live performances all the time. i can never say this more but they reallly DESERVE to win. I can never express how much grievances i have for them. to be recognised at least for putting in so much sweat and tears and for walking through this road for the past 3 gruelling years.
it is really saddening for me to deal with crude reality and made myself question about their fading popularity. i went to read different forums set up regarding this issue and was shocked to read that people actually left when they were performing during smtown. it is really depressing to read something like this, what's more, they are artists whom i really respect.
regardless of how unjust i felt, i still have to face the truth and the crude fact. i just wish for them to be still loved by all the cassies and know that to us, the t- era is forever.
