alright okay

i am upset because:
1. my legs and arms have become the feasting ground for bugs.
2. the bug bites are freaking itchy and no amt of mopiko cn stop me from scratching.
3. which means there will be SCARS. ):
4. pimples are growing on the 2 edges of my face due to lack of sleep and stress.
5. i seem to have endless things to do and idk when i can complete them.
6. i still have no designs for potion shelf.
7. i have cuts on my legs from the wire mash.
8. which means there will be MORE SCARS. ): ):
9. i have to give night cycling a miss today.
10. i haven run since adidas sundown.

at times, i wondered why in the world am i working so hard to make things tt will be torn down eventually. but in the end, i will still make them to my best abilities and i noe i need to look away when they are really destroyed and thrown away. i guessed the process is most impt and knowing tt i could make all those things will be suffice to put smiles on my face.

thrown away.
but always in memories.

true blue

days are passing like a bullet train. so fast tt i felt i haven really accomplished or done anything so far in the holidays except my rag props. everyday is back in school ragging and feeding the damn bugs in the tentage. i have so many freaking red itchy spots on my arms, elbows and legs. mopiko doesnt seem to work at all and i will hate to have scars all over. ): and i got burnt so frequent. almost every other day by either the glue gun or the thinner. and today, it's both. ): HAHA. i feel like i'm ranting my displeasure abt rag in this space. but other than all the bites and burns, rag is pretty okay and fun. get to know more frehsies and my own peers better. and it's great to see smth you drawn on the paper become 3D. (:

i hope i will be able to complete all my stuff within the next 2 weeks so at least i cn help out for the float. everyone has been helping me with the props and i feel i shld do smth in return as well. detailing designs for the potion shelf is nowhere to be seen. my a4 paper is STILL blank and white. hopefully i cn get it done over the weekends and start work next week. aesthetic display props is killing me. i could only complete 1 giant barbell today. i still have 2 farmforks. acha fight! i can complete them all by monday. HAHA.

smth away from rag: i had icecream buffet on wed! went to ion swensens and ate 6 scoops plus 2 cakes. ULTRA sinful. i really cnt imagine pple eating whipped cream on waffles and icecream. esp after knowing how whipped cream comes abt. the buffet was pretty okay but i will prefer main course buffets. more photos on the icecream buffet next time rd. (:

i know it wouldnt.

for sure.

updates!

finally i am updating abt wat had happened recently. been really busy with rag so didnt have much time to blog. foc was fun and i realised the whole lot of fun i missed out for not attending last yr's foc. ): but well, i am glad i took up the ogl role and get to play those station, sports and war games with the freshies. had fun making new frens and knowing more abt my own peers during the camp. (: although aurigae came in last, the fun and bonding was the most impt. glad tt the ht-ht session with the freshies turn out well and they started to open up more. :D

AURIGAE! (:

SP nite aka FOC bash was the day after break camp. went to rag in the morning and rushed down to staff club to help set up the place for the freshies b4 they get to meet their sp. unfortunately, i brought the wrong set of clothes to change and had to borrow a dress from huiyi. fortunately, i was able to fit into the dress. just tt there was a hole at the back which made me SUPER uncomfortable. hahas. SP nite was fun with all the games and the food is pretty okay too. had loads of camwhoring thru out the nite and during the camp so much tt my fb photos are over 1k now. :D had to squeeze in bh's van back to ps room for rag meeting with the seniors b4 squeezing in the van all the way to holland v to meet up with aurigae for HAAGEN DAZ! (:

me and huiyi as table i/c with the freshies and their SP! (:

recently, it had been just ragging, ragging and more ragging. i feel tt i shld just install a bed in the tentage and sleep there everyday. travelling to and fro is really a chore especially since sch is so damn faaaar awayy from my house. night duty had begun and there are loads of bugs in the tentage. stress is building up since my farmforks, cauldron, treasure chest and barbells had nt been completed with detailing and my tiny brain just ran out of ideas. literally SQUEEZED DRY. the potion shelf is nt even build yet. AHHH. mai stress is wat i heard from alot of my peers and seniors and i noe exactly how to deal with the situation: handle it calmly and it will all be over soon. but reality is always different. i am a gan jiong spider so i will panic and be stress. sleep is limited and i am beginning to get angsty when the detailing designs doesnt go well. acha fight! another week is starting soon and i hope more things can be done.

u learnt the best only when u'd been thru the toughest.

worn

time flies! june is over. it's july oreadi! rag tentage is up and the float structure arrived 2 days ago. rag has filled up majority of my time now. so much so tt i am deprived of sleep. ): i noe i need sleep but when so many props are not done, i just have the urge to chiong thru the night and try to complete everything asap. i noe i cnt keep manpower to myself esp since we have limited time to make the float strucutre. it has taken a toll on me mentally and physically. acha fight susan! i need to trust myself and the team. we will pull thru all this and make a spectacular performance on 6 aug. not much updates for now because i need to sleep.

i love my bed more than ever.