gone and forever lost.

seen too much. heard too much. and it has reached a saturation point.

yes, saturation point. dissolution had ceased. just like how the solid cn never mix with the solvent ever again. it has become a suspension. a 2 phase system. even if there's a propeller mixer to mix the suspension, it's a deflocculated suspension. the resistance to mix just gets greater with each attempt to stir and mix. i just wish it will never reach supersaturation. ever.

there are too many plastic flowers. and too many ignorant remarks. i will never noe the face under tt mask. perhaps all is wounded and scarred. perhaps another single step will turn into a sin. perhaps the fortress is built to hide away all the unforgotten memories. watever the reason may be, there will always be a lighthouse. but the eyes are blinded. it will never be seen. and now, it's gone. and forever lost.

a new chapter

if time and space could stand still, i wish to cycle around the world and enjoy nature's embrace.

when things get pretty mundane, it made me ponder at times whether this is really the life tt u really want. i guess it's pretty normal at times to feel this way since there will be times when we just feel really really tired at wat we are doing. hopefully i will be alright again after some icecream therapy. another week is ending and i made up my mind to run for nusps treasurer on thurs night after a really really long thought. it's really smth new tt i have never try b4 in my entire life - elections. and i need to make a rallying video to convince pple to vote for me. i understand fully tt in every election, there are bound to be competitions. so regardless of whether i will get the post or not, i will just try my best for now. (:

i finally resume my running on friday after so loooong. after nt running for so looong, everything seemed to be back to square one! ): i need to train and train again. nike human race is waiting for me! ran with jh and cheryl and we had a long chat at the steps along the track after our run. it's gd catching up with them and i noe things are nt really the same anymore. there are shifts, jumps and hopping ard. it took me some time to get used to them too. but ultimately we are still pharmily. (:

days before storm

it's the 3rd week oreadi! i realised i haven been updating this space for 2 weeks! lab is starting this thurs which means no more 4 schooling days and no more gg back home early on thurs. ): life has been great so far, leaving aside the schoolwork. dfd is driving me nuts. the many formulas, equations and wat not. i need surfactants to reduce tension oso! lifeforms turn out to be interesting. at least now i noe Big Bang is not just the korean band but the cosmological theory that explains beginning of life in the universe. HAHA.

aurigae outing!

we went to sing k at cck centre and had 2 extra hrs FREE! (:

rag comm lunch + s'pore flyer!

we slogged hard and had our rewards ytd at kuishinbo! (:

belief or naive

today is the 1st day of school and i woke up LATE. luckily i caught the train and bus in time and didnt miss any part of the 1st lecture. there seemed to be so much problems gg on with my body. my left knee is cranky again and i had troubles bending my knee now. ): hopefully it will recover soon so tt i cn resume my running. i had terrible appetite recently too and i'm just eating for the sake of eating food. ): lectures had been okay so farr just tt i'm a little worried abt the sci gem i'm taking. ): it's freakky to have just 60 pple in a class and when the lecturer rambles on abt astrobiology wif u knowing nth abt it. hopefully everything will turn out better for the days to come. (:

it is at times like this when i start to ponder again how did it ever begin.

i knew all along and even better now that it was all useless, pointless, senseless and worthless.

i had been saved from drowning waters too soon and led into a daunting maze too quicky.

despite all tt happened, i chose to believe u had too much bad memories to start all over again.

♥ raggg forever!

rag officially ended on 6 aug 2010. there were loads of emotions gg on within me and the rest of those who had worked hard and put their hearts and souls into this project. there were tears of joy, relief, excitement and reluctance. i had been waiting for D day for so long tt when it finally came, i felt tt everything happened too fast. it seemed like ytd when rag tentage was 1st set up. it seemed like ytd when i was still thinking abt props designs. it seemed like ytd when i was working late at night in the tentage, being chased by john and joanne to go home.

everyone used to ask me why did i even want to get involve in rag when my whole holidays will be burnt and tt my sleep will be sacrificed. i used to not have a real answer to the question. but now, i found the answer. it's the contentment and joy of knowing tt the dancers like the props i made for them and tt the designs i had in mind for my props on paper can become real in 3D, standing right in front of me. it's really a great deal of accomplishment and i do not regret taking up this project for i had suffered hardship to have rag memories etched in my mind forever.

i will miss rag. i will miss the days of suffering, sleepless and bathe-less nights. i will miss sleeping on the pellets, cutting CD bits, getting my hands and clothes dirty with paint, contact glue, glitter. when we were granted competing status 4 days b4 rag day, we had the whole pharmily working tgt to give our dragon a metamorphic change. although we did not win anything, we had fun working tgt and we all knew in our hearts tt we had accomplished smth greater than we ever thought we could. for that, i believe we had won over ourselves and we will return ever stronger next year. (:

the dancers with my props (:

all the dancers at the track.

the rich prince with barbell and bow (:

the princess locked up in the tower awaiting for the rescue of her prince.

the peasant prince piercing the belly of the fierce dragon (:

the witch brewing potions in the cauldron.

dancers posing (:

dancers posing for static display (:

the main float and my side props (:

PHARMILY!! (: